Sunday, February 28, 2010

My Tale

Yes Thanks Sabrina for taking the intiative and doing this. I wanted to through out February but could not get motivated. I know I know not a good enough reason/excuse but it was mine. So here it is about to get crazy busy and I am determined to do this...here’s hoping!

For those that do not know me or know me that well... My name is Erin and I met Sabrina through the BSU my freshman year @ WKU. She was my “Aunt” and married to her now brother-in-law...only the B ;) Any who...I am a recent grad from Western and in my second year teaching Middle School FMD (Severe Special Education). Never dreamed I would a) teach FMD, b) teach middle school c) being doing both and loving it. I am single and learning to endure small town life again. There are times I love it-the relationships and closeness. And there are times I HATE it because you can’t sneeze without someone on the other end of the county saying bless you. It’s been an adjustment. :) I have within the last year found a church in Clarksville, TN and become active once again in Children’s Ministry. Let’s say this is children’s like I’ve never done before, but it is a learning experience. I have been able to use things from teaching and passed down from previous people I’ve worked with. BTW Sabrina-tell your husband thanks! :) I did learn a lot and hope to pass it on and it be accepted!

College was a chance for me to grow and grow-up in life and in faith. I too am a minister’s daughter. My father was a Baptist preacher so I understand the concept of attending church all the time. In fact I like to joke and say that I had a “drug” problem. I was drug to church Sunday morning, Sunday night, Wednesday night, any VBS, any revival, and any other church event. I came to know Christ the summer before 6th grade. It was a really neat experience because my father was able to be there and baptize me. Those are awesome memories to carry with me now that my dad has passed on.

When I was in 6th grade my parents divorced. After the divorce my church habits changed. Mom still made me attend church but by the time I was in High School I had started working and did not go that often because my work schedule interfered. When I started college I was so sick of church, its politics and just the overt fake-ness I had experienced in several locations that I did not go my first semester. Second semester with the aide of Freshman Family Group’s encouragement I started back. By the summer I had gotten somewhat involved in children’s ministry. From there I dived headfirst into ministry @ the B. I did not make the smartest calls when it came to that for various reasons. I never knew one could go empty serving until that year. I was not filling up as I should because I was doing too much. After my sophomore year, I had to take a break. By that point I had switched churches and was extremely happy. This is what church is supposed to be I thought at the time. I was active in Children’s ministry and LOVING it! I was working with people that knew what they were doing and had a passion for children’s ministry. I stepped back a lot at the B and was ok with it. I found a lady at church to disciple me. As with any good thing it must come to an end. The beginning of my 5th year things started shifting. God was directing me that I should look at moving on. I of course did not listen. It took a major event to shake me and one I wish didn’t have to happen but it did and amazing things have come from it. I took this time to step back and find a place to heal and just worship. It was very needed and still a process.

Where I am: Well I tend to agree with Sarah-not really in a downward spiral but to the point where I’ve gotten complacent. The last really Bible Study I was apart of was Meredith’s in college. I miss that greatly and hopefully in the near future will have one going here. Yes I have church and Sunday School, but I miss the closeness and accountability from meeting together. I try to read at least a devotional in the morning but don’t always get to. I am hoping that with this I will be more intentional with reading and spending time with God. My devotional I am reading is My Utmost Highest by O. Chambers. It really nails you...so blogging would be a good way to share what I’m learning and just so I will have a record of it. I’m not the greatest at journalling because of the time issue. Memorizing verses is not something I have done in a while. Meredith had us working on some in Romans but I wasn’t always the best at it... :( When I do take time to read I love reading through Psalms. It has to be my favorite book of the Bible!

So I guess that’s where I am...I would love to meet but agree with Sabrina’s idea of at the beginning and end. It is harder for me to get up there. So just keep me updated and let me know. If you want to read more my Blog is Rin’s World. Sorry don’t know how to link it...and it hasn’t been updated in a while...maybe one day :)

Where I am...

First of all, thank you so much to Sabrina for starting this group! I am really really excited about it--I find that most of my dearest friends are in other places these days (or that i cannot seem to mesh schedules with those still here) so the internet has become my lifeline in many ways, and I think that this bloggy group will be a wonderful way to maintain the accountability relationships that I so desperately need.

Well, for those of you who don't know me, I'm Sarah Edmundson, wife of Patrick, daughter of Thomas Weakley (the Campus Crusade director at wku), Office Manager at Pediatric Associates, and "mommy" to my adorable fur-babies, Butch & Kitty. I majored in Religious studies with a minor in Philosophy, and until this year have lead a college Bible study through Crusade since 2003.

My "salvation story" is honestly kind of hard for me to share b/c it just isn't "normal". Being the child of ministers, I heard the gospel pretty much straight from the womb! They constantly explained salvation, sin, Jesus' death on the cross, etc...and at the age of 3 I prayed to recieve Christ. Now, that is understandably hard to believe, even for me b/c it's not like I can vividly remember it, though I do remember sitting on our front porch afterwards with my parents emphatically declaring that Jesus was in my heart! I was baptized by my dad around the age of seven. Either around or before that time I was witnessing to my little friends and my sister. Obviously, I could not fully understand all the implications of the gospel & salvation at that time, but I can honestly say that I have never felt that I did not have the presence of the Holy Spirit in my life, and even if someone becomes a believer at a later age, they in no way understand it all (no one understands it all!). All I can say is that I prayed to receive Christ at that age, and the fruits of the Spirit were evident in my little self, so though I can't really understand it, I do believe that is when I became a Christian!

I have wandered in and out of closeness with the Lord over my life. I never out-right rebelled like many minister's kids (aka, no drugs, drinking, partying etc...) but I always had problems with boyfriends and putting them first. I had a very unhealthy relationship for the majority of high school in which I honestly lost my identity, and then when I became a senior in college started dating Patrick who was not a believer at that time (though he later accepted Christ and now we're married--feel free to ask about that if you want, but there are always consequences to "missionary dating"). Things really turned around in college when I started getting involved with Crusade my freshman year, saw my boyfriend come to know the Lord, and then the next year began leading a Bible study and discipling young women for the first time. During that leading & discipleship process I learned more about faith and fellowship than I had ever known, and developed a passion for having honest vulnerable relationships that encourage one another in Christ.

After graduation and then getting married, life just changed. It is a hard transition going from having people constantly being intentional in Biblical relationships and always learning and being intellectually and relationally stimulated to sitting behind a desk all day around the same people and being drained. In the late summer/early fall of 2007 I got sick w/mono (ridiculous--who gets mono after they're married?!?) and I had just gotten a promotion at my job and tried to push through it and my body just broke. I developed Chronic Fatigue Syndrome & Fibromyalgia and a few other pain conditions and had to re-figure how I live my life. I've learned a lot about resting in the Lord and trusting in His power rather than my own, but my prideful person still tries to do it all too often and I now pay for it every time.

So...that's a LOT of background...where am I now?

This year (I still count things by school years, so let's say summer 2009-present) has been hard. It is the first time that I am not leading a college Bible study, and though I feel like I need the rest it is hard b/c that is where I have always grown the most. When I don't have the motivation of leading others, I all to often slack off in my time with the Lord and become complacent. I also have become very materialistic, which I never would have seen being a problem back when I was in school! Since the New Year stared and with our 5 o'clock club challenge, I have gotten back into the habit of spending time with the Lord daily and am really seeing how desperately I need it! I also am in need of honest relationships with Godly women and am excited to see where this group goes!

In my time with the Lord I am currently reading through Psalms again. I have to go back to this when I need a reminder of what a personal relationship with Christ is supposed to look like. When I read in the New Testament, I can tend to get overly analytical (thank you Religious Studies major) so this helps me focus on how I need to pour out my soul to the Lord. I am also rotating between Abba's Child by Brennan Manning, Fear Not Tomorrow, God is Already There by Ruth Graham, the Believers Daily Renewal by Andrew Murray, a daily hymn devotional and daily Classic Christian writings devotional, and prayer journaling.

The biggest thing that I need accountability with right now is going to church. I have always been a slacker in this area, finding my need for fellowship & worship filled by other means, but since I got sick I have not gone consistently at all. I say "I" rather than "we" right now b/c we had a hurtful experience with the church we were a part of up until the time that I got sick, and it left my husband feeling very hurt and jaded against the church. That is also a prayer request. So put together the fact that I pretty much hibernate on the weekends due to my illness and do not want to get up in the morning, plus the fact that I would be going alone...it's just hard. And I'm prideful and don't want to be asked where my husband is (or have people judge him for not being there). And I'm lazy and want to stay in bed until 11. And I don't want to go alone when all my friends are in couples. There. I admitted it all. It's not good.

A few thoughts on accountability and fellowship for this group...do we maybe want to pick out a memory verse for each month and then all work on it together? I think that could be really cool--and we could rotate who chooses. Also, what about trying to get together once a month (at least those of us who are in the area?) We could set a date (or a specific Friday night, like the second in the month) to shoot for each month, rotate who "hosts" and then whoever makes it makes it--if we did this that could also be our time to recite our memory verse to one another....Just some thoughts...sometimes I get over-eager ;)

If you want to get to know me more online my blogs are:
To be a better me where I post about more personal stuff
&
Teapots & Cakestands
where I post about baking and fun stuff....some personal stuff too but less

Here we go!

Well Ladies, the journey has just begun. What have we committed to? Spending time with the Lord daily, spurring one another along when we need it, and sharing the ups and downs with each other. I dont know about you, but I need that.

So to start off with, why dont we all share where we are at in the journey right now. I'll go first and the rest of you can either write your own post (those of you who have accepted the invite to be a blog author... if you havent gotten an invite and want one please leave your email address in the comment section) or leave a comment letting us know where your at in the journey.

I have now been a Christian for around 11 years. That sounds like an eternity to me, and yet some of you can say 20 years or more! Ha! For the last five years, I have been learning how hard it is to develop a consistent time with the Lord amidst the daily pulls of adult life. I have been spotty, and it doesnt help me any that I really dont have anyone in my phase of life at my church. I need accountability. I need people who will tell me I am just making excuses and I need to suck it up and make the time. I need people to remind me that it really will be the most refreshing time of my day, because sometimes its just getting started thats the problem right?

Anyhow, over February I have started to get in a groove I think. I am a morning person, so I am committing to set time aside each morning to spend quality time with the Lord. Right now I am finishing up a study on Ruth, trying to memorize Philippians and struggling to develop a disciplined prayer time each day. Being in the word comes easier to me, prayer is a real weak spot and memorization is something I have just never been intentional about. I need people to hold me accountable to passionately praying each day, meaning I need you to ask and bug me to see if I have really been doing it. And not only that, have I truly meant it?

Spiritually right now I am at one of those rolling plains, meaning I am not in a tough valley of hardship or depression and I am not on a mountaintop experiencing tons of amazing praises and growth. I think these times are challenges because it is so tempting to either get complacent, get bored or get prideful. Its these everyday normal times that make up most of life, and this is where I have to learn to acknowedge, praise and worship the Lord. Challenges and tips on how to do this are always welcome.

Thats where I am at. Where are you?? I am praying that this little group of ours could, by the Holy Spirit's leading, somehow overcome the whole internet barrier and become life-giving community. Those of you who dont blog, share in the comments. Be real and lets walk together on this journey.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

What is the J Club?



I am officially starting "The J Club". What is that you ask? The J Club is a club for people who want to commit to and be held accountable for spending daily time with Jesus.
  • What: An accountability group
  • Who can join: Anyone willing to commit to a set time with Jesus daily. **Even those of you who dont have your own blog!**
  • How to join: Comment below leaving your email address for me. I will set you up as a blog author on The J Club Blog
  • What will it consist of: 
    • You committing to specific time each day to hang out with the Lord. This can be morning or night, whatever works for you. 
    • You posting on our club blog about how it is going at least once a week (but more if you want) and something you are learning or struggling with. 
    • You reading the blog and supporting/ holding the other members accountable to persevering on. 
So who is in??? Come on people,


"let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching."(Hebrews 10: 22-25)